no boys. there’s two o’s in goose

Oh the beach. The sound of the waves crashing, the ocean which stretches farther then the eye can see, those annoying seagulls that poop everywhere, crazy tourist that dont know what they’re doing. Yes the beach. I love it. I am sitting on the porch as I type this staring far into the vastness of the lonely ocean. The unforgiving sea. It makes me miss my seafaring navy days. Oh a pirates life for me.

I arrived here yesterday, late afternoon. The sun was soon to set. The temperature had dipped just enough for a light jacket. The sky was lit up pink. Whats that old saying, pink at night sailors delight.

I had unpacked all my gear. Tonight was yoga. I needed to get my workout complete so I could go back to doing nothing. I opened the window to my tiny room. You can hear the waves breaking. With zero distractions I immersed myself into yoga. It was perfect. I have come a long way. I still need a lot of work. My weak areas are warrior three and those half moon poses. My legs are not quite that strong yet but I will get there. I finished up feeling much better.

I took a wonderful shower and made my shakeology, came out on the back porch where I watched the moon rise over the water. It was a full moon. A beautiful perfectly shaped moon. It cast a glow so bright that you could see contrails left behind jets that criss-crossed the sky. Stars were plentiful. Even the planet venus made a bright and shinny statement nestled close to the moon. The shimmering water from the glow of the moon was majestic, peaceful.

One of my favourite sounds is when a wave breaks, as the water races back that one moment where everything is quiet before the next wave crashes. That sound of silence. Where just for one moment, everything in the world seems obsolete. Nothing else matters in that one instant. Life is perfect.

I will be here for a few days. so far, I have walked a couple miles up and down the beach but that has been all.

This is what I want. Nothing.

so good

shoulders and arms. shoulders and arm! my arms feel like jellllllllo! but that’s good right?! ha. today was a good workout. i had a really short day at work so i got home with plenty of time to get in my workout. I upped the weight by 5lbs on most of the exercises! that’s awesome!! i felt really golden afterwards although i could have def used someone to help wash my back!

that was the best ab ripper i’ve done so far. oh i still hate them and still struggle but i am getting better. marathon… not a sprint. got it! do your best and forget the rest.

trmw is yoga. it is also my overnighter. so laptop and p90x is packed. i’ll be yogaing out at the days inn in salisbury in north carolina. so far that’s my fav workout so i really want to bring it trmw!

another challenge i want to do is think how i think while im working out ALL DAY! free myself from the cynical clowns i associate with. when i work out, through the pain and sweat (no blood yet) i focus on the task at hand. how many reps, maintaining my form. in other words bringing it! i turn off my phone (as if anyone txt me anyway) but makes me feel more at ease. it erases everything. the past, the future, it’s all gone.

tonight i met a friend at the bar for a beer. yes yes i will have a beer every now and again. anyway we met this hair stylist who gave out some pretty solid advice. follow your heart. the rest will somehow include themselves into your life. there is nothing less satisfying then doing something you hate. hmm i hate driving a truck and i hate the carolinas. well do i? i mean it’s no seattle but where is my heart telling me to go?! i thought i knew at one time. i thought i knew. i know what i have to do trmw. i have to drive to cofield, nc to drop off some bushling. (that’s scrap metal) I should just keep going. haha. bossman would love that. no no in two weeks i will go find myself. i will be lying by the ocean reading a book, staring out over the water, going for a swim as far out unto i freak myself out. enjoying the smell of fresh fish, seafood and rum. working on a tan for when this body gets back in shape, ima look soo good. that’s it. yup yup.

do your best and forget the rest. sadly it has been over a month since one of my closest friends quit talking to me. from what i remember i was giving them advice and i made my friend feel really small. when they said that they had to go, i knew what that meant. i knew that was it. i sent an email to them later that day saying that i was sorry. i knew if i had called or txt that they would go unanswered. they are stubborn when you burn them. i made them feel like shit and that was so not my intent. i felt close enough to them that i thought it would make sense. well not only was the advice lame, i lost my closest friend. not one day goes by without me thinking about them. i just wish i could talk with them. they know how much i enjoy talking and they were really the only person i went to with advice. now i have no one. nothing to look forward too. our weekly phone calls meant the world to me! that is why i started working out. now p90x and shakeology are the things i look forward to now. it’s def not the same but helps motivate me to be a better man. so here’s to that.

 

oh I have included a link right below here so yall can go listening to a brand new SAY ANYTHING song and it’s so good! (I’m such a dork)

Say Anything’s ‘so good’